Quick Update

Seems she has changed her mind about becoming friends, stating that we would be ‘bad friends’ I don’t know what exactly is a bad friend but I sure as hell am not a bad friend.
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Grey’s Anatomy Philosophy Part III

In life we’re taught that there are seven deadly sins.  We all know the big ones… gluttony, pride, lust.  But the thing you don’t hear much about is anger.  Maybe it’s because we think anger is not that dangerous, that you can control it.  My point is, maybe we don’t give anger enough credit.  Maybe it can be a lot more dangerous than we think.  After all, when it comes to destructive behavior, it did make the top seven.

Grey’s Anatomy Part II

Nobody’s memory is perfect or complete.  We jumble things up.  We lose track of time.  We are in one place, then another and it all feels like one long inescapable moment.  It’s like my mother used to say: ‘The carousel never stops turning.’ …

They say we can repress our memories.  I wonder if we’re just keeping them safe somewhere because no matter how painful they are, they are our most powerful possessions.  They made us who we are.

Warning: May contain a rant.

So she was in work all day.

I haven’t read it properly but I do forgive you I understand it was horrible for you and I was a bit of a t***.  We can try and be friends at some point.

I dunno whether her not reading it properly is a good or is it better if she had thrown it away.  I spent all day writing that letter and for her to not even bother reading it properly is in a way more hurtful, I poured my heart and soul into that letter and for her just to skim over it. . . Continue reading

Things aren’t what they use to be. .

I have never felt as worried about waiting than I have been while waiting to see if this girl will give me any response to the letter I wrote her (pretty sure the last time I was this worried was getting my A-Level results back in 2005)

Is it paranoia that I am so anxious about not hearing anything, there could of been various reason to why she hasn’t replied: Continue reading

This is what I wrote her. . .

Dear Maria,

I hope you will actually take some time to read this and not throw it away in the bin.

I’m nervous about asking you to forgive me. I’m sure that you’ve suffered a great deal because of me, and asking for forgiveness is so much to ask from you. I also know that you might find it hard to believe my promise that I will learn from my mistake and never repeat it. I truly never want to put our relationship on the line again. I hope you can believe that. Continue reading